Change.

I want to change.
I don't like how I curse all the time, and how I vent about people.
I hate to say behind their back, but I almost admit to it.
I talk about them, because they upset me.
It's venting, not rumors.
I hate it either way.
I'm not sure how I'm supposed to do this.
I think the biggest is.
I'm torn between changing into a better person,
ya know, one who doesn't curse, behaves, doesn't back talk, all that.
A perfect image Christian.
Or the one who is rebellious. Not rebellious. Who pushed their boundaries.
Always in trouble, always having more fun.
This is quite complicated.