Fidget.

I can't sit still, and I never have been able to.
I always have to be doing something, anything.
Drumming, tapping, bouncing my legs, or shift positions every five minutes.
If I can't sit still during lectures, classes, even bus rides,
I don't see how I can when I'm supposed to be listening.
Listening to God. I know it's what I need to do.
I just can't, I can't clam my body, including my mind.
It's frustrating, and I just wish for a good week. I could listen.
Creation didn't even help.
I screamed for bands, and sang along, but I'm not sure.
Is it a habit, or praising?
I don't know.